Tobey

Dear Tobey,

Mummy and daddy loves you lots. Mummy is so so sorry if I've not been a very happy mummy to you lately. The 'occasional' screaming that you heard nowadays were not meant towards you, not at all. It's just that sometimes it gets abit overwhelming being pregnant for so long. Plus I want to hold you so badly. It really worries me to think that you are slowly running out of space in my womb. Must be so cramp for you in there. I am sorry, but just a little bit longer ok...and I promise you'll never live in tight spaces again.

Mummy looked at your 3d scan pictures again just now and I got a bit teary. They remind me of how lucky I am to have you. You are just too precious my son. Daddy didn't want to look at them again, not because he doesn't care, but I guess he didn't want to cry man tears..hahaha!(it's ok for man to cry by the way, regardless of what your daddy says about crying) You really should get to know him (if you think you do already, there's always more) , he's really a character. I think you'll enjoy his company a lot.

You are 34 weeks and 3 days old now (gestational age - remind me to explain this term to you when you read this) and hopefully growing well. Your movements now are more distinct. I think I know how to tell the position you're in at any one time. How I wish you can tell me what nutrient you are lacking so that I can work towards eating more food which are rich in that nutrient. All I want is for you to be a healthy & happy boy :) . It's very important to be happy. Ask daddy to explain that to you, he's good at things like that.

Grandma (your daddy's mummy) will arrive from Malaysia in a fortnight to stay for a couple of months. She is here to look after us when you first arrive into this world. You must remember to thank her for looking after you, ok.

By the time you can read this letter, mummy must already be old already hahaha! (Hope you like reading, and yes, the internet is a good place to store something for years). Anyways, you must always remember to take good care of yourself.

See you soon!

Love,
mum

New management

Our fav hangout cheap & cheerful spicy food place, The Trill of the Grill (located at the top of The Drapery road, Northampton) has been taken over by a new management and operating under a very 'muslim' sounding name ...


It reminds me of KFC's logo. Fine. We went in anyway but delighted to find that the cooks are the same people with different coloured uniform. There were several new clumsy waitresses though. One even dropped one of those cast iron dish right beside me. Scared the living daylight out of me. And another one only brought our drinks to us after we enquired about it after 10 mins. She still got the nerve to ask me to repeat my drinks order! *&$%! If not for my hubby holding me back, I would have told her how incompetent she sounded. Well, she shouldn't be messing with a hungry pregnant woman. (Same goes for this Argos teller we met today who spoke to us in her bloody 'chavy' English as if it's completely acceptable and gave me this look that spelled "stupid yellow people" when I asked her to repeat herself..grrrrrr! You'll understand my frustration better if you're 8 months pregnant and not so loving it anymore)

We ordered
Massala fish (~£5) :

This was as good as we remembered it to be. Full of flavour and fish was fresh. It went really well with our naan bread.

Lamb curry (~£5) : Noticed that the cutlets of lamb used was of a cheaper cut. Hence, caused the dish to be more oily that what we usually get.

And...

Baby spring chicken (~£4): I hate hate hate the name of this dish. Why must the word baby be in it. Still feeling really bad from eating it :(

Overall, still a nice place to eat but would much prefer the previous name which is cooler sounding. Of course, after returning from this restaurant, all item of clothing worn has to be washed, as the result of being smoked by the open grill.

Thought I should record this visit as it could be our last visit to this restaurant, as it's not baby friendly at all. Must spend the next couple of weeks visiting new haunts that has high chairs or stroller friendly.

Still pregnant...

...exactly 33 weeks and 2 days......this is getting tiring to say the least. I feel imprisoned in my own body, infact it's not my body anymore, it's just a vessel, a baby carrier, a place to grow and mature this precious baby of mine...tick-tock, tick-tock.....time is passing me by TOO slowly!

He's growing really BIG...uterine stretching on my upper right side, below the ribs is not ticklish at all. If I were to sleep in the wrong position, the pain resembles the agony of tearing skin. My midwife said given the position my baby is lying (bum under the ribcage), it's very NORMAL..furthermore, this baby is relatively bigger compared to my body frame.

Oh, I also realised that I am not as 'able' as I use to be, in terms of energy level and speed of carrying out tasks. I do try to walk as a form of exercise, but every half hour, I'll have to stop and rest. No more walking the mall for hours without even a wee break. Now, I have to be in close proximity to the loo. Doesn't matter that each time I go, I'll only eliminate like 10 ml, but if I have to go, I have to go NOW!

Thank GOD I am on leave (annual then maternity). Although it's boring when you can't do much, at least I can sleep the 10 hours I NEED nowadays. Plus, I can plonk myself on the bed for a lie down whenever I need to. Seriously, I do not know how many Malaysian friends and relatives that I know that could work right up to their due date...

So what can I do when I can't do much and have too much time? Now that the hospital bag is packed, all clothes are washed, the nursery is ready and all major cleaning has happened, all I can do is to read and rest and eat and suft the net and cook and WAIT...patiently I'll wait.....

All I want is just to hold this little boy in my hands as soon as possible..... for the next chapter to unfold.....

The cutest washing line

All hand-washed lovingly by yours truly with the non-bio gentle Ecover detergent...

Prawn noodle

It was rather bland one, but ok for a cold winter day. My blender broke down on me halfway through cooking. But we got it replaced eventually.